Norfolk, Va

Norfolk just smells like the Navy. As if Saltwater and freshly painted ships were her natural  fragrance. Those bases and ships are the blood and bones of her economy and the sea stories of its residents have given her memory. So co-dependant the navy will always call Norfolk home. If the Navy went away all together. I am sure she would gather all the parts from ships sunk across the atlantic. She would use currents like arms and wash them upon her shores. Hide them under her beaches. Hold them tight to her bosom and wait to hear lullabies of sea stories past once more. You can’t walk the streets without tripping over a sailor active or retired. They walk the streets like P-ways. Chiefs are recognized with or without their anchors the short hand jargon of sailors is a second language and understood by many.

 As soon as I saw the tunnel I began calling friends I knew to be stationed there. A woman answered I responded “I didn’t know he got married. It has been awhile, oh he is underway. OK” click. I’ll try someone else. “He is in England really?”  That’s ok I’ll try…  damn on duty. Try again. “In Texas. On leave. Yeah that’s cool. Enjoy your leave man. Good to hear from you too.” This wasn’t the reunion I hoped for. I knew Willie was here. “WILLAAAY!” A greeting that was a dead giveaway it was me. After the requisite chuckle if hearing a familiar voice came the usual “What’s going on bro.” with an unmistakable Orange County flavor. It had the impact of creating immediate dislike from a few in Mississippi who didn’t like the surfer vibe he gave off. I was already aware that he was working an extra job. He was getting married and these are the responsibilities he was taking on, moving off base and new wife required extra money. After the small talk we agreed to meet up after he got off.

Later as agreed we headed out to a crowed bar on the strip. Once inside I began my Habitual scan of the room. Checking clues to who was available and signs of an opening. When my attention returned to Will, there was a smile. He didn’t mirror my enthusiasm. There was a nod behind the smile acknowledging my agenda. He had seen it before he wouldn’t stop me from doing my thing. It was always understood he wouldn’t participate. I was hunting alone. Here we were a hunter and husband. We have done this dance many a time. He always made accommodations for me. He has always been willing to take a cab so I can close. While we made small talk and waited for our drinks I was coming to the conclusion, this isn’t Meridian. I can’t make up for bailing by covering a tab, or catch up with him in the morning. Tomorrow I am gone. This is the one friend who is actually here and he came out to drink in spite of two jobs and being dead tired. I also knew I couldn’t just sit in a room filled with temptation. When Will asked why our drinks were taking so long I used it as an opening. “This place is too crowded to get good service. Let’s hit another bar.” We left without objection. As we did I took another look at the brunette across the bar playing in her drink just waiting for me to introduce myself.

 We found a bar far less packed actually it was sadly almost empty. We ordered shots and began to shoot the shit. How was civilian life, about his ship, making 3rd class, recalling times to remember and nights I wish I forgot. Then our conversation came to the future Mrs. William #####. There was always a sense a pride and a change in tone detected in his voice. As his cadence seems to become a melody every time his girl becomes a topic. It was his tell. If this was poker I would have folded every time. He really loved his hand. 

After the bar closed, found myself home. I opened the door to the room to flop lifeless on my bed. I heard Wills’ car Leave the parking lot. I shouted “WILLAAAY!, another shot” once more into the pillow. As my eyes shut I considered our IOU account even. I took one for the team. We saw that brunette leave with the ugly Marine and his fat friend in the car parked two cars down from us. The things I give up for friends…..    my thoughts trail into the blackness of sleep.

 As I left in the morning my thoughts were on Wills’ girl and Navy wives in general. I remembered the first-hand accounts of cleared bank accounts, email notifications of divorce at sea, the ones who simply couldn’t make it another year wrapping presents alone on Christmas, or when the need for understanding comes from a male friend that gets too close and fills places of need left void by absence, or the really bad ones; the wives turned barflies during the months there husbands are away swore fidelity when they came home and professed  undying love. Yet why do some relationships seem to grow stronger with absence? As I left I watched the sea looking for a ship any ship to be pulling away I saw none. Those ships that bring money in, bring sailors to distant shores, bring tears to those who will miss them waving on piers, bring me to the conclusion I was never a sailor I don’t think you can ever truly be one without sacrifice.


Now Bin Laden’s dead; let us continue to destroy ourselves


With the death of Bin Laden, victory it still not assured.  There are still radicals who hate our way of life and extremists out to destroy us. The extremists who pose the greatest threat have been said to be religious fundamentalists waging holy wars, and militant radicals seeking to destroy everything this Country stands for. However, like Bin Laden, they are not inAfghanistan.  They don’t present a unified front.  I call them the axis of benevolent evil.

                It has been said the road to hell is paved with good intentions. What is the harm in living your life with Christian values the way God intends?  Absolutely no harm; actually, it is a beautiful thing to be spiritually centered, to cultivate mediation in ones actions and to find a direction in one’s life.  So what is the harm in moving towards church governance?  The short answer: absolutely everything.  The inquisition, the dark ages, and churches giving power to kings, sounds so old and outdated.  However, if you are looking for a reference in the modern World, while it may sound odd, look at Islam.  Google Sharia law: it shapes not only government but politics, prayer, and judicial polices as well. The Christian rights’ attempts  to push church and State into an unholy union, is a giant leap backwards. If successful such a union lays the groundwork for, limiting scientific research and education to a biblically correct scope, Supreme Courts that sway to God’s law over Constutional law.  In fact, why stop by ending gay marriage?  Why not simply kill them outright, like Uganda and its links to American faith based organizations.  

The question is whether it would get that bad.  I don’t know.  However, I do know that it is a slippery slope.  Religious fervor is a powerful tool; look at Al Qaeda, NLFT, KKK, The Army of God, to cite a few.   Now ask me why the Christian extremism scares me more than Muslim extremist?  It is closer to home, and threatens the very fabric of society.  Theocracy would even cause unexpected issues for the integrity of Christianity.  Many fake Christians, aside from those of the Republican base, would pop up just for the economic and political advantages that would come from a theocracy.  C.S. Lewis, a strong proponent of Christianity, explained why a theocratic government would be dangerous far better than I:

I am a democrat because I believe that no man or group of men is good enough to be trusted with uncontrolled power over others. And the higher the pretensions of such power, the more dangerous I think it both to rulers and to the subjects. Hence Theocracy is the worst of all governments. If we must have a tyrant a robber baron is far better than an inquisitor. The baron’s cruelty may sometimes sleep, his cupidity at some point may be sated; and since he dimly knows he is doing wrong he may possibly repent. But the inquisitor who mistakes his own cruelty and lust of power and fear for the voice of Heaven will torment us infinitely more because he torments us with the approval of his own conscience and his better impulses appear to him as temptations.  Thanks for the help but we have been practicing divide and conquer on our own for a long time.

With Al Qaeda dominating the headlines, reemerging militant groups do not seem to be an issue, but over the past 10 years we have had more planed attacks by Americans.  Hutaree, the Gifford’s attack, George Tiller, the  Austin IRS attack, the Holocaust Museum, Fort Hood, Andrew Poplawski, Colleen  Larose, Michael Fitton, Najibullah Zazi, Joshua Cartwright, James Cummings, Jim Adkisson: all home-born attacks recruiting is on the rise for terrorism whether the tool is religion, immigration, politics, or a black president.  The fact that Bin Laden was attempting to capitalize on the division with recruitment of terrorist is no surprise.

                Al Sharpton can protest this as fantasy all he wants, but the Black liberation army was born out of the same bottled frustration upon which a terrorist organization could capitalize.  I love free speech.  Personally, I like when the KKK speaks.  It is almost funny; you can hear how backwards they are when they speak of “the blacks” being the reason for all of problems that plague America, “why jobs are bad, debt is so high, for inflation, why women don’t like me…”  The danger is when they get political power, savvy, and nuance.  David Duke made it sound nice, and Fox news made it sound true.  Nixon called it the southern strategy, and it still continues to this day.  It solves none of the real issues, starting with unemployment, poor education, and national debt.  Instead, it serves as lip service to their fears and fuels their anger and frustration.  Politician A gets elected, doesn’t do anything to help the situation, finger points, and passes the buck.  Yet, people like him.  He gets reelected.  Likewise, a Rapper A “reps“ his hood by showing the World that his block is the most dangerous block in America; he gets rich, the record executives get rich, but the home values don’t go up in his block, and new businesses don’t come to the most dangerous block in America.  People buy his records because he is “real.” There is a defrence between becoming a voice for those without one and profiting from it. The absence of leadership and government creates a vacuum.  

                “Beware the military industrial complex:”

 a famous line by the last general that became President, Dwight  Eisenhower.  Decades have passed since that ominous speech and we are still not listening.  While The Pentagon and Congress are attacking the economic stability and the strength of the infrastructure of this country.  Failing bridges and levees, crumbling roads, waterlines, and schools get ignored, while new planes and weapon systems are developed faster.  Our “enemies” are using old Russian assault rifles and have Navies and Air Forces that are laughable in comparison.  We spend more on defense than the next 12 countries combined, and most of those nations are our allies.  I completely support men and women in uniform but the question must be asked: why are we policing the World?  Even more importantly, why go bankrupt to do it?,8599,2065108,00.html

Congressional kick backs and earmarks

It is a million here and a million there… all the way to bankruptcy.  Career politicians are good for one thing: getting elected.  Benevolent evils activist who dreamed up home ownership for all as equal opportunity, realized 10 years later that relaxing lending policies for people with low income and poor credit was a bad idea; that people with poor credit and no money tend not to pay you back.  Who knew?  The stimulus package was stuffed with ear marks and kickbacks just to get it passed.  Like any good piece legislation, it is not what is good for the people, it is what is good for the Senate.  The voice and needs of the People are both completely ignored not just by corporations but unions, the NAACP, ACLU, NRA, Foreign lobbyist all should be restricted campaign finance reform is a real issue.  It is legal bribery.  Why do corporations and foreign nations donate and pay lobbyists?  Because it works.  The Pakistani government pays a lobby millions and we give them billions in aid, oil lobbyist insure oil companies get subsidies despite making millions of dollars in profits.  How can government work properly when it is getting paid not to? Will political leaders ever live up to their promises? Are we stuck with the makeshift leaders who fill the vacuum? More importantly, when are we going to stop focusing on other nations and fix what is going on here, in our own Country?  Generations have been asking these questions an we are still waiting for answers.

Missission Accomplished

With the announcement that Osama bin laden was killed by us Navy seals this morning, US troops have eliminated the man behind the Sept. 11, 2001 terror attacks.  Pundits and news outlets will begin the cycle of analysis; what does this mean for Obama’s re-election, Iraq, and Afghanistan, our relations with Pakistani intelligence. I will take this time to thank those involved from the intelligence community to the operators on the ground we will probably never know your names but we thank you all the same.